sze-fan's senseless scribblings

I wanted to blog about how someone was so nice to me yesterday but sth really bothered me today. had to express myself, cannot tahan.


why? why? why?

why did i VOLUNTEER to help?

why did you call me even when you didn't trust me?

why did you have to criticize when you didn't see the things i have done?

why did i even waste so much time, effort, strength, money but in the end, i gain nothing except endless criticisms? i don't expect any returns AT ALL but just a simple 'thank you' is more than sufficient.

why did you ignore the things i have done and just choose to look on the bad things?



after asking so many 'whys', i don't need an answer.

i think i already have it.

you're just human. LOL. (is that funny? i think so. *going mad*)




you say i don't have to care about what people say. but i can't. so, it's not your fault. but mine.



anyway, i don't look forward to the event tmr.

*sigh* how i wish i was like drew barrymore in 'first 50 dates', losing her short term memory and start a new day everyday. i want to forget.

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Proverbs 12 (New Living Translation)

1 To learn, you must love discipline;
it is stupid to hate correction.

2 The Lord approves of those who are good,
but he condemns those who plan wickedness.

3 Wickedness never brings stability,
but the godly have deep roots.

4 A worthy wife is a crown for her husband,
but a disgraceful woman is like cancer in his bones.

5 The plans of the godly are just;
the advice of the wicked is treacherous.

6 The words of the wicked are like a murderous ambush,
but the words of the godly save lives.

7 The wicked die and disappear,
but the family of the godly stands firm.

8 A sensible person wins admiration,
but a warped mind is despised.

9 Better to be an ordinary person with a servant than to be self-important but have no food.

10 The godly care for their animals,
but the wicked are always cruel.

11 A hard worker has plenty of food,
but a person who chases fantasies has no sense.

12 Thieves are jealous of each other’s loot,
but the godly are well rooted and bear their own fruit.

13 The wicked are trapped by their own words,
but the godly escape such trouble.

14 Wise words bring many benefits,
and hard work brings rewards.

15 Fools think their own way is right,
but the wise listen to others.

16 A fool is quick-tempered,
but a wise person stays calm when insulted.

17 An honest witness tells the truth;
a false witness tells lies.

18 Some people make cutting remarks,
but the words of the wise bring healing.

19 Truthful words stand the test of time,
but lies are soon exposed.

20 Deceit fills hearts that are plotting evil;
joy fills hearts that are planning peace!

21 No harm comes to the godly,
but the wicked have their fill of trouble.

22 The Lord detests lying lips,
but he delights in those who tell the truth.

23 The wise don’t make a show of their knowledge,
but fools broadcast their foolishness.

24 Work hard and become a leader;
be lazy and become a slave.

25 Worry weighs a person down;
an encouraging word cheers a person up.

26 The godly give good advice to their friends;
the wicked lead them astray.

27 Lazy people don’t even cook the game they catch,
but the diligent make use of everything they find.

28 The way of the godly leads to life;
that path does not lead to death.

read this in my phone after i blogged. wow.

yesterday i went for futsal with joo khiang and eric's friends. it was my first time playing the 10 players game. and i was the only girl in the group, maybe also the only girl playing in the whole stadium. hahhaa. anyway, all of them were quite nice. hehhe. someone said that i was very good (for beginner that is). hahahha. i managed to snatch the ball a few times and passed it to benson who scored the goal =) although it lasted only 1 hour but quite tiring ler.



after that we went yam cha at station one, they bought a deck of cards and played 'FISH' (a card game that is quite similar to heart attack, no gambling involved =P). sheun yeow lost and was forfeited. he had to either do pumping on the floor 5 times in the middle of the cafe or do jump clap or ask for a girl's phone number. XD he chosed the latter one and had to ask the waitress for her number. damn funny coz he was so malu. hahhaa.



reach home a few minutes later. brought keys but couldn't open the wooden door. someone locked it =.= and i was locked outside my house, for the first time too. tried to call my cousins but all of them were out. didn't dare call my aunty coz she was already sleeping and didn't want to make her angry on the day before her birthday =/ soooooo.... my heroic cousin flew back from PJ in twenty minutes time ( he was helping tv3 setting up their booth in his part time job). when waiting, i was playing my handphone games and listening to songs, few ppl called too =D
anyway, he saved my ass XD.



my hero <3

i want to play badminton XD.

was supposed to be doing my chemistry and bio reports plus video assignment BUT i couldn't bear the boringness of them and me being the lousiest blogger in our group (CC, tyee, LM, shane, yx has been blogging more frequently than me =.=) so i decided to do this very LONG DELAYED post.

11th July 2008, Friday

(countdown to new sem : 2 days)

Time 20:00

Me: wei sien lah school starting d. tmr wanna do sth FUN? lk hiking or go jungle trekking?

Shanq Yeet: hmm yealor. wat about going to rawang? there got watefall very nice, can jungle trek a lil too. =D eihhhhh... can do camp fire and have breakfast there too! hehe.

Time: 2200

we went to the seveneleven nearby to get our stuff for breakfast on the next day! XD

(i was amazed by our speed. so fast and efficient. that's the nice thing about having 2 guy cousins. hahahhaa. no need plan so much before going for ADVENTURE! )

12th July 2008, Saturday

(countdown to new sem: 1 day *sobs*)

Time: 0600

we woke up early because we did not want to be caught in the mad KL jam, took our stuff and we're on the go =) oh yea, my cousin checked the car although it was just a 45 minute drive. we wouldn't want to be stucked in the jungle right =P

Time: 08:00

we reached our destination. had to walk in the jungle quite a distance while carrying our loads on our backs (just like an expedition! haha) no complaints though =) a few leeches bit my two cousins! i was safe. hahhahaha.

ahh.. the waterfall =D

us chopping wood with parang after collecting them cautiously (for fear of leeches)

my PRO cousin bro who was an ex-scout setting up the small camp fire with the help of the wood I chopped down and also fire starter =)

me making dough in a plastic bag because SOMEONE forgot to bring the metal container =.=

sat on the rock making food and a leech got on my leg. thx God i was fast and used my hand to brush it away XD do you see our bread stick on the pole?

enjoying the waterfalls while waiting for the 'bread' to rise

shin yih's trying to show the place where the leech bit him, i think

my two cousins =)

the organiser and me =)

in conclusion, the last holidays were the BEST in my life! had penang 'trip' with monash frens, going out everyday with penang ppl, playing badminton & pool, went singapore and rawang trip.

i will make my coming holidays BETTER i vow. XD