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okayyyyyyy. i think many of you have already seen despicable and defaming pics of myself in Mel's blog. so... i might as well put it up myself lol.

i hate ppl taking credit for my amazingly ugly photos of myself. HAH! just joking, Mel ;)


statue of liberty wannabe XD




perbuatan tak senonoh o.O





pulau tikus tai kah cheh


look at gabriel's expression. haha.

PS: can't update about genting trip and "penang trip" because of lack of photos due to lazy ppl lol

Dear readers, this is a meaningful article that i feel will benefit both singles and married ppl. Those who are still single may learn something from here...Those who are already married may take it as a guideline to improve yourmarriage & relationship ... DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, "How do I know if I married the right person?" I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?" In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?"

that was supposed to be a joke if you don't know lol.

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighingon your mind. Here's the answer. EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love withyour spouse/partner. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch,and liked their idiosyncrasies(unconventional behavior/habit. Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard.

In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience.You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" inlove... Because it's happening TO YOU . People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet."

Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria(excitement) of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship.

Slowly but surely,phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not alwayswelcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies , instead ofbeing cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between theinitial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angrysubsequent stage. At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry theright person?"

As you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breakdown. People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment. Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is themost obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV,or abusive substances.

BUT the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation afew years later. Because (listen carefully to this): THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the expression "the labor of love." Because it takes time, effort, and energy . And most importantly,it takes WISDOM . You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriagework. Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific thingsyou can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage. Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), thereare also laws for relationships.Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger,certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger.It's a direct cause and effect.

If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable... you can "make" love . Love in marriage is indeed a "decision"... Not just a feeling. Remember this always : "God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go."


well, a meaningful article it is no doubt. anyway don't ask me why i put this article up all of a sudden and when am i getting married.

to avoid any more questions, i will say that i am getting married on 31st august. so remember my ang paus. remember, on 31st august 2017 yeahh. who is the groom? i don't know YET. hahhahaaaaha

(as you can see, CHEMISTRY really is messing up with my head now! ARGH.... out of 21 questions, i can only do less than 10. Help!)

anyway, countdown: 1 DAY!!!! =D

A Paternal Poem

Day in day out for us you’ve toiled,
Every cent you’ve earned on us you poured,
Though you may not know that for you, we are glad.
And this day we are here to say thank you, dad.

One day is not enough
To say sorry
For all the times we disobeyed you

One day is not enough
To apologize
For all the times were rude to you

One day is not enough
To atone
For all the times we lied to you

Oh yes of course we know

One poem is not enough

To make it up
For all the times we disappoint
But now that we’re a little bit wiser,
Though we don’t always remember,
Know in your heart that forever,
We have you to thank for,
for all that we are today.

For you’ve brought us up,
To be men and women of God,
To love, to protect and to fight,
With courage against all odds.

For that we give you thanks,
Happy Father's Day!

written by Beatrice Teoh and her GC Youths

PS: it's father's day this sunday! remember to remember your dads lol.

yesterday, went for badminton awhile illegally (didn't pay =P, played in no-light condition haha) right after my stats exams then kena halau. since we (me + cousins) didn't sweat enough, went to park and jogged two rounds somemore. saw van there, stopped by to take drinks and free buns haha. didn't stay for the games although they said "don't go after taking the freebies yea, later got games" HAHA. and, we left. without playing games. *winks*

watched my now favourite drama series "golden finger", every weekdays 7.20 - 8.00pm on channel 317 if i'm not wrong. really nice. that time, everyone, including my 2 bad cousins who always bully me and aunty sure will crowd around the tv. my cousins (shanq yeet and shin yih) are very bad! last night scare me saying i'm going bald! wthe!!!! (but then again, actually they not so bad lah, always help me carry books or bag when we walk to daiki hehe)

watched kung fu panda at night with 4 of my cousins (all guys. coz no female cousins here, so i got "special" treatment lol) the cartoon damn nice. so funny, laughed from the start till the end. and to think that i didn't want to watch the movie at first. pfftt. haha. yes, piggier and wk was right in saying the movie's good =) wk even watched both english and cantonese version of it and somemore said wanted to watch it again (that is if he didn't have to study for exams lah). pandamonium lol. oh yea, bea said she laugh till stomach ache (must be laughing so super unlady-like) *picturing it in my head* =P

to tyee, go watch when free lah when you bored of studying the thick thick stupid chem. is better than drama. i think.

but haihhhhhh.. today felt so moodless. no mood study lahh. somemore 2 of my cousins went for holiday in thailand and hanoi d. so sad, the house's like so quiet. suddenly feel lonely now. no cousin to tease me about me getting fatter, becoming darker, uglier, being unladylike, super chor lor or me going bald TT

help. please come back.... (oh, was just referring to my study mood, not bad cousins!) haih, okay, maybe both lol.

i am crazy.

i am in love with bob. SPONGEBOB!


he's not stupid and the way he laughs is not sot sot dei! =.=

now i've said it. it's no more a secret now, is it?

PS: why blogspot sudah mundur no more colours to choose for the words

PSS: i am bored of bio!

countdown to holidays: 14 days


countdown to exams: 2 days


haven't been studying a lot lately. haih. whole family's here for holidays, have to teman them SHOPPING, WATCH MOVIE, PLAY BADMINTON, EAT ICE CREAM. spend quality time with family rite coz family > exams. hahhahaa. die d lah!!! ><..

PS: i need motivation even as i study motivation (in management textbook) =.=

PSS: haven't started studying stats and someone complained she just studied till chapter 4??!! OMG

some of the pics I promised :

wat was he trying to do? o.O

oh look, we're happy =P