sze-fan's senseless scribblings

went to church today. everything was so nice. the praise and worship. enjoyed myself thoroughly. i felt Him again =D

anyway, after the singing, we were asked to pray for our neighbours. i sat beside this real tall girl who was dressed quite nicely. she asked what was my name and said 'i'm michelle.' i thought, how did she know my name? and then she said 'michelle tan'. i was like, am i wearing a tag that says michelle tan or anything? well, i checked. LOL. no, she is also michelle tan. =D she prayed for me and i asked if i could pray for her (first time i did that in acts) so proud of myself because i am usually quite shy and don't pray well. hehh =)

pastor kenneth shared sth that really touched me today but i can't remember a lot of points and facts he stated because i did not jot them down =X but i will try to convey his message here for the sake of some people who need to know this.

pastor kenneth said, a guy went to consult him because he had been in church for a few years already and now he feel that going to church is pointless and it has become a drag for him each sunday morning to wake up early and to attend the services. that guy said that he doesn't expect anything every time he goes to church and he doesn't have a need. (that is why he thinks he doesn't need God already)

'We need to have a need', pastor Kenneth said. without a need, we will not have any expectations. therefore, we do not have the drive to act or do something for Him or even for ourselves.

isn't need something bad? doesn't it symbolize weakness and frailness? aren't we supposed to be strong always and always be blessed by God?

As far as i remember, there's two kinds of needs (i can't remember the rest). first, need in circumstances.such as lack of money etc etc (the usual need). then comes another type of need. we choose to be in need because of our conviction given by God. pastor kenneth provided a few examples such as God challenging some challenged to stop juggling between 2 jobs by giving one up and then spend more time serving in church despite their financial needs, some challenged to forgive someone that hurt him/her very deeply, some challenged to do missions, some challenged to serve full time, some challenged not to take any salary but live by faith and rely on Him only (fyi, pastor kenneth did not have any salary for the pasts 14 years i think). the need arises because of the choice we make or the one we NEED / SHOULD be making.


do you have a NEED?


sorry i did not know how to put it as good as how pastor kenneth has shared it.(this gives another reason for you guys to go church with me lol) but i hope those who should understand has understood and learnt sth from it. here you go, a post for you. live and learn.