sze-fan's senseless scribblings

i don't know how to say this. i really don't. the thing i feared that will happen to me came to pass. it is not the first time i got myself into the same situation. exactly the same. lol. i need to hurt somebody again. intentionally but unintentionally. why does this always happen to me? some might think it's a good thing but i don't think so. i experienced it much, sick and tired of it now. do you understand? i know you will try your best to lol. just try to do as i say can? i hope we are able to go back to the past where everything seems so natural. really. it is for our good. thanks. =)

let go and let God.